Whoa. Its been a long time since I’ve written on here. Didn’t have much to say, I guess. Now I do, so pay attention, if you want!

Lets go back to July, 2009. 

I took a camping trip to Spring River with my girlfriend at the time, Lindsey Lowrie (whom I’m now good friends with, for the record.) This is when I believe I was infected with Lyme Disease. It certainly could have been prior to this, but I’m just not sure. I started noticing strange symptoms arise during the trip, which leads me to believe I could have been bitten the weekend(s) before, which I spent at our house in heber springs with my family. Either way, this is the block of time in which I became infected with Lyme Disease. 

I first noticed severe twitching as I fell asleep in my tent during the trip, and some strange neurological stuff. I also had an abrupt change in my alcohol tolerance. Normally, I could hang with just about anyone. So naturally, like any college student at spring river, I consumed obscene amounts of alcohol alongside everyone else. I rarely ever got so drunk that I puked, no matter how much i drank. This time - it was different. I don’t really recall much, but after a few shotgunned beers (my former trademark) I was as they say “gone.” I still have a scar from the ropeswing plummet into 3 feet of water. Alongside bleeding out into our raft, I proceeded to puke my guts out over the side of our raft. 

Fast forward to the end of our weekend trip, Sunday afternoon. I dropped Lindsey and her friend off at home, and went home to crash. I received the “Breakup text” a few hours later, which looking back, I fully deserved. I made an ass of myself, and of her. Normally, my emotions were bulletproof, almost non-existent. Now I know, the severe state of  depression I landed in, was due to the infection. Its funny to me now, but at the time, I was a total wreck. Lyme messes with your head big time. I couldn’t understand why a 2 month relationship break-up hit me so hard! The next two weeks were followed by severe insomnia, loss of appetite, and depression. All somewhat gradual. 

I had a show with my old cover band, “White Rain” in Murfreesboro two weeks later. This is when the symptoms really kicked into high gear. On my way home that sunday, I nearly fell asleep several times, which really scared me. I met my buddy Evan Ingram at our friends apartment in Memphis, and thats when I found this teeny tiny little tick in my pubes. (Sorry haha) When i pulled it off and showed Evan, he said “Dude… you better get checked out for Lyme Disease.” I kind of blew it off at the time. 

As soon as I got home that evening, I laid on the couch and totally crashed. For TWO WEEKS STRAIGHT!!! I’m not exaggerating one bit. I thought back to the tick, and started researching. I went to the bathroom, pulled my draws down, and sure enough, there was a bulls eyed rash right where I had plucked that tick off weeks before. The next day, I went to the Doctor, showed her the rash and explained my symptoms, and she was convinced on the spot that I’d been infected with lyme. 

She took my blood, but warned me that many times, Lyme doesn’t even show up a lot of times with current test kits. So, she Rx’d me two weeks of Doxycycline, and told me to report back if symptoms cleared up. Sure enough, in a week, I was back to normal, thank Jesus! I finished out the rest of my cycle, and went on with life.

Or so I thought!!! See, I’ve Always been ADD, but my parents never wanted me medicated, so I just toughed it out through high school. College was a different story. I began taking adderall in 2007, and it did wonders for my grades. I was on +/- 30mg until 2009. Of course, Lyme was totally out of my mind after I thought I was cured. Couldn’t have been more wrong. In the winter of 2009/2010, I noticed it just wasn’t working anymore. So, naturally, my Dr. increased my dosage.

So, 30mg became 40mg. A couple months later, 45mg. Fast forward to 2011, and I was progressively Rx’d 80mg of Adderall. EIGHTY?!?!?! That is ABSOLUTELY absurd. My doctor. is. a. MORON.

Fed up, I started researching again. The more I read, the more everything started to make since. I hadn’t killed off the Lyme bacteria, I had simply slowed it down. All this time, I had taken my Doctor’s word that I had simply built up a tolerance to Adderall, which was “totally normal.” Mind you, I was spending upwards of $200 a month for this stuff. 

So basically, the Adderall completely masked my symptoms of Lyme Disease, and I had NO idea. Until recently. 

I was involved with LUVMUD/LUVGLO last weekend, and struggled all weekend long to find energy to go on. Friday, I had some facial paralysis that scared the living daylights out of me.  I made it to Sunday, and around 3pm, had my first ever “panic attack.” I was on stage DJ’ing, and I just freaked out. No other way to explain it. So, I texted the coordinator, and told him I had to take a break. He let me. So, I went home to get another dose of Adderall, but first took a break on the couch. The next thing I knew, was that it was nearly 9PM, and I had 15 missed called from mark, and my sound guy. I straight up passed out!!! 

Long story short, I took my full 80mg dose, and fell back asleep, for another 5 hours. UNBELIEVABLE! Woke up monday with ZERO energy, but took another 80mg dose. Barely able to drive, I went to shelby farms and picked up all of my equipment, half of it in ruin due to the rain/carelessness by volunteers who tore down the stage. 

So here I am, a week later, totally adderall free for the first time in 5+ years, yet no where near clear headed. I’ve decided upon seeing “Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead”  and “Under Our Skin” documentaries on Netflix, that I should go the natural route in cleansing my body of bacteria and toxins - with Juice Fasting. 

Join me in this journey as I begin treatment. I’ll be heading to my family’s cabin in Drasco, Arkansas armed with my Juicer, lots of green veggies, my guitar, and my recording gear. I hope to come back as a new human, with an album’s worth of songs, and a new outlook on life. I’m thinking about filming the journey as a documentary, but I’ll need some help! If you’re interested and have video editing skills, lets do it!

- Adrian Berryhill

I dreamed we ran out of gas, I got run over by the jeep, we pushed the jeep 2 mi to a closed gas station, where two thugs were waiting to rob us, one with a solid white eye, but my triumphant hooting and hollering made them realize I was no one to mess with, then an hour and a half later, a guy from a gas station 5 miles away brought us gas, and we were on our way, I took sleep pills, and the next thing I know, I heard a loud explosion, open my eyes, and we are sideways on the highway, fish tailing our way to certain death, we all got out safe and sound, Craig starts changing the tire, but doesn’t know how, so as per usual, I save the day. Of course, this wasn’t a dream, it really happened. Can’t make that up!! Run on, sentence, run on.

I HATE NICOTINE. SO MUCH.

and it might be a while again. Life is soo ridiculously busy right now, and I’m not even in school. Can’t wait to be back in school. Life doesn’t feel right without it.

Think I finally found what I’m looking for.

Even when it feels rights, like it always did, something interrupts and it doesn’t happen.

rachiiiebee:

mckenziegrace:

noriver:

who the fuck is cutting onions in my room?! ಥ_ಥ

Its so touching to see how far people will go for someone they love. This movie shook me to my core. Everyone should watch it! Netflix instant que GO!

This gave me chills. I must see this.

Wow. Glad I watched this.

(via rachiiiebee-deactivated20120102)

That’s all. Just thanks. For being you.

I am who I am. I might be strange to some, but I can guarantee I have fun in everything I do. Priceless.

so I guess tumblr is useless to me now.